Well Today is already December 4th....
I can't believe that. Almost a year ago I was preparing to head to Paraguay... Now it is already a year later... I seriously don't know where the time goes... Sometimes it can be very overwhelming... But I love to look back and reflect over the past year... where I have been... what I have accomplished and where I am headed :) So much has happened over this past year and for each part of my life that has changed I am beyond grateful, happy, excited and dreaming of what is to come...
I think as it begins to get closer to the holidays, I find myself thinking about family and friends.. wishing that we lived closer... Sometimes being in a single parent family can have its downfalls. I love my little family and am blessed beyond anything in this world but sometimes it is just depressing, especially around the holidays. This year it will just be me and my mom for Christmas..... I have told nobody how hard this is for me... how hard it is that my brother will not be here.. nor my grandparents. I don't want to talk about it a lot because I know that it is hard for my mom... I just stay strong for the both of us... But sometimes the overwhelming feelings and waves of sadness hit me... this is one of those moments...
Christmas as a child was and still is my favorite time. I miss waking up and having my brother by my side or spending Christmas morning with him and Emily.. Times and Life changes we must adjust... sometimes it is very hard.... I see my other friends who have huge families that live all in the same vicinity and it is very hard for me because I long for that more than anything in this world... One day I hope to have that :)
However I am thankful for an amazing, beautiful, faithful mother who has sacrificed so much for me and my brother. Has kept not only the foundations of God in our lives but the traditions we did as a family have still been much apart of who we are. I am thankful and grateful in so many ways. It may just be the two of us, but the two of us will and always can make the best of it :)
On another note......... I can say that I have finished up my last Fall semester at Lee University as an undergrad... I must say it feels AMAZING. It is crazy to think I am about to graduate from college in a little over 5 months :) :) God you have been so faithful. Thank you for walking me through this journey hand in hand and directing my each and every step. You are forever
faithful.
I am excited to begin the next chapter of my life. I am ready for new beginnings...change... moving forward. :)
I am dreaming...and will continue to dream big :)
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