Still.. Be still and know that I am God..

Hello Again....

Today has been a great day so far... as well as my weekend as a whole. Yesterday was my mother's birthday. :) We celebrated it with friends and family. It was truly great to just fellowship, laugh, smile, and have fun! I know it was great for my mom as well. She deserves to have an amazing day for she is an amazing person inside and out... I love her :)

I have been in one of those moods today where my mind is ticking away in so many differnt directions.... Life always gives you things to think about, moments to remember, moments to hope for, and lessons to always learn. I am thankful for where I am at and where I am going. God continues to daily remind me of his amazing faithfulness and his mercy and grace that is new each and every morning. Today at church, it was a great service. pastor did not even get to preaching because God was moving and his annoiting was overflowing. Pastor had made an altr call for anyone, but specifially for those who had physcial illnesses or finacial needs. For some reason today, I felt a strong desire that I needed to go to the front. I don't ever go unless I know that I know that God is speaking to me and telling me to move. So I moved. As I stood at the altar, I just began to weep and I knew that God was moving in and through me. Pastor had asked the young people to help him pray and to lay hands on people. Several young people came around me and prayed over me. I don't know what they said, but I definitely felt God's annointing. There have been many moments in my life when I have distinctly felt God's presence over me and today was one of those days.... God was speaking in and through me and just reassusring me of the promises... the hopes.. the visions and the prayers he has given to me. To not give up, to not doubt but to keep pressing... to keep hoping.. to keep believing and knowing that he will never leave me nor forsake me. He is my healer and I will see my complete healing come to past. I am thankful for this journey he has placed me on for it has helped to mold me and shape me.

After the young people prayed over me, Tyler had been standing in front of me praying for a young boy, i felt someone grab my hand and pull me towards them, I knew it was him. He put his arm around my neck and began to pray over me and cry. In that moment I felt God's presence even more and felt God's annointing flowing through him. It was an amazing moment to share together. I am thankful for Tyler and for his willingness to listen to the holy spirit and to listen when God speaks. It is amazing to know that I have somone in my life not just for a season but for a lifetime. Someone who knows how to pray. Someone who knows how to seek God. Someone who is not ashamed and not afraid to cry. Someone who loves God with all their heart. Someone who walks in the blessings and the faithfulness of God. As we stood there together and prayed I just wept and was thankful that I have a man in my life like Tyler. A man that I love and that loves me in return but more than anything loves God with all his heart.. and is willing to seek him first in everything he does. Thanks Tyler for being that Man of God. For being differnt. For being strong. For loving. For being my Best Friend. And for walking with me, side by side and hand in hand. :) You are my life. You are my future. and I am blessed and thankful for you. I love you more than you will ever know.

God has blessed me beyond belief. I can't ever stop talking about it becasue I am always blown away at his faithfulness and amazing blessings. We sang the song "Still" today at church by Hillsong. One of my favorite songs.

"Hide me now Under your wings, Cover me within your mighty hand. When the oceans rise and thunders roar I will soar with you above the storm, Father you are king over the flood. I will be still and know you are God"

Even in the biggest storms of life God is there. No matter how big the storm, how long, how wide, how deep. God is there in the very midst of it, holding your hand and walking you through it. My God is a big God and a faithful God. Never loose sight of that.

Sometimes we must Be Still and know that he is God. We must stop. wait. and listen. sometimes it is not easy but in those moments you will be awakened to new heights.

So God thank you for breathe of fresh air, thank you for your annointing. Thank you for your healing. Your unconditional love, mercy and grace. I am thankful that you are here and moving in the midst of our daily lives. I lay down my will to you, not my will but your will be done in my life. I love you Lord with all my heart. In you I live and move and breathe.........

A Blue Kinda Day......

Well It's a blue kinda day.... Do you ever have those days when you just are overhwhelmed with life. Overwhelmed with maybe the obstacles you are facing or the journey that you are on. Do you ever feel discouraged?....

Today has kind of been one of those days for me. I was sitting at work today and throughout the day I was overwhelmed with waves of emotions. I began thinking about life... My journey.... I think that my emotions have been swirling around me for weeks and today they just errupted...

There are days that I feel like my life is in a whirlwind, right now I am at a place that I never thought I would be, nor did I ever think God would take me in this direction. However once again God has surprised me in his plans that he has for my life. I know that God has placed me where I am supposed to be, even if there are days it seems like it's a fight. Sometimes the battle is the greatest when God is about to open the flood gates of heaven, and open doors that no man can open but him. Sometimes it means you have to fight all the more to get to where your dreams are. Sometimes it means you have to sacrifice much. Sometimes it means you have to press through even when you want to give up. Sometimes it means you must laugh through the tears and the pain. Sometimes it means you must smile even when you don't always want to. It means you must never give up and always try harder. Always push yourself and give more than what you think you can. I think I am telling myself this more and more everyday...

Lately I have felt that my passion and my drive to get to where my dream is, has slowly been fading. It seems that the joureny to get to that point thus far has not been the easiest and I have doubted myself and if I would make it there or not. However what I do know is that my God has not brought me thus far in my life.. in my joureny to just leave me hanging... He has not equipped me to fail, but he has equipped me to fight...to persevere. To have the faith to move the biggest mountain. He has equipped me to always give my best and nothing less. I know that God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind.

God is not surprised by any of this, for he has every part of my life in the very palm of his hands. I know that we all have moments of weakness, we all will have down days. It is in those moments when I know I must fight all the more. I must push through the storm and I must know that God is always forever faithful. He has loved me with an everlasting love and he will never leave me, nor forsake me.

Everyday I will awaken my praise and pour out a song from my heart........

In the quiet, in the stillness
I know that you are God
In the secret of your presence
I know there I am restored
When you call I won't refuse
Each new day, again I'll choose

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

In the chaos, in confusion
I know you're sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do your will
When you call I won't delay
This my song through all my days

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

I am yours and you are mine...

All my delight is in you Lord
All of my hope
All of my strength
All my delight is in you Lord
Forevermore

A Faithful God

I have not blogged in a while again. I figured it was about time I shared my thoughts and hearts. Well today and pretty much my whole entire weekend has been great :) Today at church was missions sunday, we were taking up the offering for Shaun and sara Morton, the missionaries we stayed with when I went to Paraguay back in December. Well I was asked to share my testimony this morning....

I have been preparing for it all week.. To be honest I was rather quite nervous. I had never spoken in front of so many people before, nor had I ever really shared my testimony. I had spent a lot of time just praying and just asking God to speak in and through me. My mom prayed over me before we left the house this morning and I truly felt the holy spirit moving in me even before I got to church. By the time I arrived at church I kinda felt a little more nervous. However as soon as I walked up onto that stage and began to speak I looked out across the congregation I felt God saying to me Megan this is going to be you one day.. This is going to be you speaking to thousands of people. This is just the beginning of where I am going to take you and the doors that I am going to open. As I began to talk and share, I knew that is where God had called me to be, that is the place that God is preparing me for. I don't know where he is going to take me, I don't know what is in store, but I know that God has been awakening something inside of me for a long time and he truly is doing amazing things in my life and he is beginning to open doors that no man can open but him.....

I don't know all that is in store but what I do know is that my God is faithful! I am thankful for every promise, every hope, every dream and every prayer. He never faiils. His love never fails. He is always there to pick us up and to wipe away our tears. He has awakend my heart once again, he is taking me to new heights and depths in him.

Every valley shall be raised up,
every mountain and hill made low;
the rough ground shall become level,
the rugged places a plain.

And the glory of the LORD will be revealed,
and all mankind together will see it.
For the mouth of the LORD has spoken."
Isaiah 40:4-5

He is truly faithful. God has blessed me with the most incredible an amazing man of God in my life. Every time I see him, I see God's faithfulness everywhere. It blows me away. We had the best time this weekend together as we entered a new chapter in our lives. I am excited to see all that God has in store for our relationship. For the foundation that we have built our relationship on will never be broken. God is daily taking us to deeper levels in him together. I know that he is for me! God thank you for every blessing poured out, for every gift, for every sacrifice, for every tear, for every journey, for life. You are my father. my friend. my shelter in the raging storm. you are my comfort. my hope. my refuge. my strength. my love. my life. my future. and my All. every day I will awaken my praise and pour out a song from my heart. I love you God.