Rain Rain go away.... come gain another day....
So it has been raining ALL day long. I absolutly hate days like these. They make me feel so blue and on top of the rain my boyfriend leaves tomorrow for 10 days. I am beginning to feel the waves of emotions... To most people that may seem like not a big deal. However for me and Tyler it's a big deal. This is the longest we have ever been apart from each other. As the saying always goes...."Abscence makes the heart grow fonder"... :)
Yes that is true, however it is still hard. Not only is he my boyfriend but he is my absolute best friend. Even though during a normal week, we don't see each other everyday nor do we talk everyday, however there is something about knowing that he is just around the corner if I needed him, but now he will be miles and miles away, which makes my heart miss him more than ever.
Our realtionship speaks so many volumes to me day in and day out. I know that the love that we have for each other goes farther than we can see, deeper than we can understand, and wider than we would ever believe. When we are not together we are not complete. It's a love that so many relationships, marriages and families lack now a days. I am thankful that I found a love that will last forever. :) It is more than I could ask for, more than I deserve and more than I ever thought I would receive. I am so in love and everyday I am falling deeper and more in love.
so tonight we got to spend together before he left. It was great. my grandparents just arrived in town and they wanted to see him before he left because when he gets back they will be back in NY. So he came and spent the evening with my family. As always it was enjoyable and fun.... Every second we get to spend together is amazing and wonderful...
So when saying goodbye, i didn't quite think I would cry as much as i would, however saying goodbye is never easy and for us who are basically inseperable, 2 peas in a pod. This is not easy. I feel like half of my is missing, which it is. I am excited for him that he gets to go on Spring Tour, I know that it is something he loves to do. I will always support him and be behind him all the way... that is what love is all about.
As I say goodnight, I have many waves of emotions. but what i know is that God's constant grace, peace, love and mercy is new each and everyday. His arms are wrapped ever so tightly around us, he will never let us go... he is always there!
Tyler gave me this necklace at Christmas and it says " I am thankful that in God's design he planned for your path to cross mine"... And yes GOD I am thankful more than I can even say........
Friday, March 12, 2010
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Through The Rain We Learn To Dance....
So we meet again... I find myself not blogging as much these days and I'm not sure why... and so today is the perfect day. It is rainy... and there is nothing better to do that blog a little bit about my life....
I honestly have nothing to complain about.. I have a great life and God has blessed me abundlty above all that I could ask for or think of. Lately I have been in a weak place in my life. A place where there are moments that I find myself struggling to have the strength to press on. But I think it is more just me letting go and laying it all down and trusting God. I know that God has not brought me thus far in my life to just leave me hanging, however he has brought me thus far to keep challenging me, breaking me, molding me, shaping me and loving me. Which made me think of this song, the chorus says:
He never promised that the cross would not get heavy
And the hill would not be hard to climb
He never offered our victories without fighting
But He said help would always come in time
Just remember when your standing in the valley of decision
And the adversary says give in
Just hold on, our Lord will show up
And He will take you through the fire again
It is kinda funny, I can encourage people all day long and speak words of wisdom and tell them to not give up and sometimes I need to just eat my own words. I have heard many times before, that most of the time when you are giving adivce or talking and sharing to someone else, you are really just sharing it so you can hear it for you.
Maybe this past semester is not the way I ever dreamed or thought it would go, however I have seen in the last weeks that this is truly the direction God wanted me to go. He has opened many new doors and taken me to new heights in my life that is challenging me and growing me daily. I am learning more about myself each and everyday. For once in my life, I am seeing the result of the person that I am, the standards that I hold in my life, the heart that I have through the words of people that don't even know me but all they do is watch and see me through how I live my life. It has been a blessing to me to hear and feel the encouragement from those who barely even know me. It truly speaks volumes to me.
I look at these moments of weakness as times in my life when God is deeping my relationship with him, taking my passions and heart to new levels, challenging me always and never giving up but always pushing me to give my 110% even when I don't want to. It is called a place of surrender. A place where you must daily lay down your wants, desires, and give it all to God. Lay it at his feet. Trust him. and know that he will work all things out. You must concecrate yourself before him daily.
Even when there have been moments that I have wanted to give up, that I didn't think I would make it, I know that I can do all things through christ who strengthens me...I know that God has called me to this place to be used by him.. to serve... to be a testimony... and to share my story..
I am thankful for who I am, for how I have been raised, for the foundation that was instilled in me at a young age, for a family that has always loved, and for a God that is constantly and forever faithful.
I am also thankful for the man of God that God has blessed me with in my life. I could never ask for anything more. I truly never knew that I could love as much as I love him. He brings out the absolute best in me and more. Thank you God for being faithful...
More than my weaknesses, more than my down times, I have so many things to be thankful for, so many blessings and so many tears of joy that I cry daily. I am thankful for this journey that I am on. Every part of this journey is a story and I am excited to see where this journey leads me and the story that unfolds before my eyes. Thank you God. I love you.
I honestly have nothing to complain about.. I have a great life and God has blessed me abundlty above all that I could ask for or think of. Lately I have been in a weak place in my life. A place where there are moments that I find myself struggling to have the strength to press on. But I think it is more just me letting go and laying it all down and trusting God. I know that God has not brought me thus far in my life to just leave me hanging, however he has brought me thus far to keep challenging me, breaking me, molding me, shaping me and loving me. Which made me think of this song, the chorus says:
He never promised that the cross would not get heavy
And the hill would not be hard to climb
He never offered our victories without fighting
But He said help would always come in time
Just remember when your standing in the valley of decision
And the adversary says give in
Just hold on, our Lord will show up
And He will take you through the fire again
It is kinda funny, I can encourage people all day long and speak words of wisdom and tell them to not give up and sometimes I need to just eat my own words. I have heard many times before, that most of the time when you are giving adivce or talking and sharing to someone else, you are really just sharing it so you can hear it for you.
Maybe this past semester is not the way I ever dreamed or thought it would go, however I have seen in the last weeks that this is truly the direction God wanted me to go. He has opened many new doors and taken me to new heights in my life that is challenging me and growing me daily. I am learning more about myself each and everyday. For once in my life, I am seeing the result of the person that I am, the standards that I hold in my life, the heart that I have through the words of people that don't even know me but all they do is watch and see me through how I live my life. It has been a blessing to me to hear and feel the encouragement from those who barely even know me. It truly speaks volumes to me.
I look at these moments of weakness as times in my life when God is deeping my relationship with him, taking my passions and heart to new levels, challenging me always and never giving up but always pushing me to give my 110% even when I don't want to. It is called a place of surrender. A place where you must daily lay down your wants, desires, and give it all to God. Lay it at his feet. Trust him. and know that he will work all things out. You must concecrate yourself before him daily.
Even when there have been moments that I have wanted to give up, that I didn't think I would make it, I know that I can do all things through christ who strengthens me...I know that God has called me to this place to be used by him.. to serve... to be a testimony... and to share my story..
I am thankful for who I am, for how I have been raised, for the foundation that was instilled in me at a young age, for a family that has always loved, and for a God that is constantly and forever faithful.
I am also thankful for the man of God that God has blessed me with in my life. I could never ask for anything more. I truly never knew that I could love as much as I love him. He brings out the absolute best in me and more. Thank you God for being faithful...
More than my weaknesses, more than my down times, I have so many things to be thankful for, so many blessings and so many tears of joy that I cry daily. I am thankful for this journey that I am on. Every part of this journey is a story and I am excited to see where this journey leads me and the story that unfolds before my eyes. Thank you God. I love you.
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