frustrated...

So I'm just frustrated.sad.overwhelmed....

Sometimes it just seems things don't go as you though they would. Life just does not make sense. Its complicated. confusing..... and more than anything people are just not real anymore. They seem to be real and truthful in the beginning and then the next thing you know their true colors come out... or maybe it's just they don't know what they want......

Sometimes I honestly don't know what to think anymore..... people frustrate me... people say one thing and act another..... and now I'm just venting about it... .it just hit me today. and a situation has arised in my life where it has made me become more frustrated because the person is showing me they really don't know what they want....

I'm just learning to let go. move on. and be content. be content in who I am. and who I was made to be.

A Dream is a wish your heart can make...

Well today was a rather fun day for me. I actaully did something for my Fall Break, considering it is almost over and I had been doing nothing but sitting at home.... but that was perfect too....

Me.. my mom and Mrs. Kym who is basically my second mom ventured up to Knoxville to shop. which is most definitely my new found favorite place..... I would rather drive a little farther to go up there than stay here.... They have more and its just fun to get away and out of Cleveland sometimes... and today I just really needed to get away.. have some fun and just clear my mind...

I feel like my mind has been racing in a thousand different directions lately.... I think sometimes I think to much. over analyze. rush. and just react to soon. Maybe that comes from things in my life that have happened that makes me always think the negative. I don't really know, but today I had a lot of time to just reflect and think and take a step back and just look at the bigger picture. Look at what was really going on. what I was really thinking and feeling. It felt good to just stop and let go. To just know that in life whatever happens, happens for a reason. Sometimes we dont always understand it... or maybe most of the time we dont understand why things happen, but we must keep holding on to the dreams and the promises we have within us and know that one day the best is yet to come. God's timing is always perfect.... his timing is far better than ours.... I keep reminding myself that......

Sometimes it just seems that my dreams are so far away but yet I know they are so close...

I am not ready for this weekend to come to an end. Tomorrow is sunday and then its back to the grind on monday, having breaks sometimes just messes me up and gets me off track. .... Now I'm ready for Christmas Break. Honestly Im just ready to be done with college. Only 2 more semesters to go and then I am off into the teaching world. Thank the Lord...... so for now I hold on and finish the race strong......


I think I have rambled enough tonight.... tomorrow is a new day and the sun will shine again... tomorrow is a better day :)

Change.Seasons.Fall

Well today actaully felt like Fall out... Maybe even a little but of winter.... It was only a high of 50 all day. It was rather nice actaully.... So today was another day of Fall Break and I did nothing really. I have just been laying around...drinking coffee..watching movies...reading books... blogging.... family time....laughing... running... maybe a little homework here and there and thats really about all. It sounds like nothing but it could not be more perfect. I enjoy just relazing and taking time to breathe.....

I went running today and it was a perfect fall run. I have not been running as much as I would like because life has become so busy but today's run was great. I think I ran faster than I have run in a while. It was refreshing.... Running helps me to clear my mind.. to think... to dream...

I def. needed time to Run and think today.. lately I have had a lot on my mind.. Just about life.... direction... friendships... and everyday stuff.. I think that as seasons begin to change, so does the seasons in your life. Fall always makes me think of a time to be refreshed and renewed... To experince new adventures, new hopes, new dreams and be awakened on a new level.

It seems like so many things are beginning to change in life.. especially with my friends, so many of my friends are getting engaged....married... and having babies.... Here I am still waiting for the one to sweep me off my feet. Yet I know that one day I will meet him. For now I rejoice in the happiness and the changes of my friends and look forward to watching them unfold the next chapter of their lives and begin a new chapter.. a new family and a new story! I will wait with great expectation, knowing that the best is yet to come not only for me but for my family as well. I know that all things will work for the good of those that love the Lord.

just a day...

Today is just one of those days..........

thinking.... wishing... dreaming.... and hoping........

and so my FALL BREAK BEGINS...