I realized that time has slipped through my fingers once again. This will be my first post since the New Year!
This New Year has already brought about so many changes in my life. Not to mention tomorrow is March 1st, which means that in about a week I will be exactly 2 months from graduating college. Is this surreal or what....
I can't believe that I am already 3 months into the new semester, and I thought it was going to go by slow, exactly the opposite. This has been my busiest semester yet, and I thought it would be my easiest. Little did I know it has probably been my most challenging semester yet. There are days that I feel I can't even breathe because I am so overwhelmed but I know that to whom much is given much is required. However in the end I know that when I walk across that stage, I will look back and say to myself that it was worth every bit of the 5 years of pain, tears, joy, accomplishments, lack of sleep, friendships, opportunities, lessons learned, mountains climbed and the amazing faithfulness of God.
To know that I have made it this far, makes me as excited as I was when I was a kid on Christmas eve and Santa was coming, so excited that all I want to do is scream, dance, shout and jump up and down. I have almost made it, for that I am thankful.
But my journey does not stop there, once I graduate I will be on my way to brighter and bigger. The thought of still being in school for another 14 months kinda makes me want to vomit in my mouth. I NEVER thought I would actually go on to get my Masters in Education as soon as I graduated college. There are days that I think to myself " I'am insane... but then again I know that it will be worth every second of it. It is a dream of mine that I will accomplish and to think that I have come this far, what is just a little bit more. God has not given me anything that I can not handle.
As I think back on my 5 year college journey from Bryan to Lee, I am amazed at all that God has done. One thing I know, is that God has prepared me for this even more than I ever knew. There are still days that I want to question and ask why, but I know that God has bigger plans than I can maybe see right now. I will never forget the words my pastor's wife in Florida said to me several years ago, and that was " God has chosen you, he has chosen you even in the midst of this sickness because he knew that you could handle it, he knew that you could carry this burden and that you would be an overcomer and a testimony to all you saw you"... I must say those words resound in my mind, almost on a weekly or monthly basis depending on the season and the moments that I'm facing in my life at that time. I am thankful for every storm, battle and mountain I have faced.
I am ready to face the world. I am ready to being life. I am ready for my future. I am ready to move into all that God has in store.
As I sit in my middle-school life group class teaching young girls at church, I am thankful and speechless. Thankful to have the opportunity to speak into the lives of these very girls, knowing that every word I say, every action I take, every move I make can change the very life and outcome of each and every girl that walks through the doors of my classroom. To be given the opportunity to share my story and my life knowing that I am a walking testimony because of the amazing faithfulness of God. My story is a light in a dark world.
My eyes have been awakened to the struggles and the battles that these young girls and boys are facing each and every day. To the battles that those who are in poverty are facing. To the struggles that single moms are facing. To the mountains that the homeless have to daily climb, to the obstacles that troubled teens are fighting against. My eyes have been awakened to a world that needs an "Awakening" To a world that needs to be broken and humbled. To a world that needs to be changed. My feet are stepping into places that I never thought they would step. Each step I take is one step more into the lives of the broken, the hurting, the hopeless, it is one more step that is shedding hope, light, faith, and is becoming my daily hearts cry....
My hearts cry when I was just a young girl, was to go to the Nations... well right now the Nations are at my backdoor step. The Nations are across the tracks, the Nations are the everyday people that I pass in the hallways, in the aisles, in the lines, in the schools and in the streets. These are the nations, the nations that are surrounding me. This is my awakening...
"For You and You alone
Awake my soul, awake my soul and sing
For the world You love
Your will be done, Let Your will be done in me
Like the rising sun that shines
From the darkness comes a light
I hear Your voice and this is my awakening"
