Hello There.
well it's been too long AGAIN. I seem to get better about blogging and then I get in a rut and i just stop. However when love to write, and when I write words seem to flow from the depths of my heart that sometimes I don't even know how, and my thoughts are expressive of the world around me and the daily journeys of life that shape and define us. When I write. I am different. When I write, I am me.
I can't believe it is already May, I honestly don't know where the time is going. Life truly is picking up speed the older I get. I'm not really sure how I feel about that. I think I have a love/hate relationship with it. Sometimes I just wish, and need life to slow down and other times i am ready for it to pick up and be on to the next chapter and journey of my life and future :)
I think the past couple weeks I have been reminiscing of days gone by. Reminiscing of my college experience thus far. It has been 4 years since I graduated High School and this is technically the "4 year mark" for when I should graduate college, however I am not, due to taking a little detour and extending my journey. However the majority of my friends that I began college with and have been on this journey with me graduated this past weekend. It really was a reality shaker, an eye opener. There was kind of a feeling of sadness that brushed through as the journey ended for all of us and we go our separate ways. Most of them are engaged or getting married and beginning their next chapter and new journey. I am happy for all of them but my life changes drastically after college, it is definetly not like when you leave high school. Its' a whole new world.........
I think a part of me was also a bit frustrated that I was not graduating with them and that my college journey is taken quite a bit longer. But one thing I can say is that everyone travels different journey's in life for different reasons and on that journey you learn and you grow. Well my journey has definetly been quite different than most, but through it all I am thankful and I am blessed for the amazing and wonderful FAITHFULNESS of God. Whether I see or understand the whole big picture right now. I know that one day it will all make perfect sense and every piece to the puzzle will fit perfectly together to create a beautiful tapestry.
I think also within myself this has brought back more than ever my determination to finish this race that I began. I know that God has equipped me with the skills and the ability to do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me. I know that for whatever reason, I am in this season of my life because God has called me to be here at this time. Through this season he is stretching me and even opening up doors that I never thought would be opened. In the midst of the storm I am thankful for the rainbow and for the promises that he always fullfills. For the hope that is always found. For the strength that is always given. For the dreams that are always and continually discovered and for God's constant and unconditional love.
I think I have rediscovered my dreams, not to say that I ever lost them. They have always been there. Honestly I think that apart me at times pushed them to the side because I felt as if my dreams seemed so far away. They seemed so out of reach and everything I was doing to get there was not seeming to work. However sometimes in life you have to push yourself more than what you want to get to your dreams, sometimes you have to sacrifice, sometimes you have to lay everything else down and make it to where you know your supposed to be. Sometimes you have to take even a bigger leap of faith and trust God whole heartidly and know that he knows all things and will work them out in his time. For me this past semester that has been a hard thing to grasp at times. It's a lesson that at differnt times in my life God has been challenging me with, teaching me and showing me.
Over the past 4 years of my life my faith has been taken to heights and levels that I never imagined I would go. God has taken me places, shown me things, challenged me with things and done things in my life that 4 years ago I would of looked at you and said your crazy. I found this quote and I like it, it says:
“Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe"
Every word of it is true. you have to have the faith and belief in first yourself to be able to have the determination to finish the race that God has placed before you. It is NEVER going to be easy, if life was easy, if there was no mountains to climb no bumps to walk over then what would be the point. How would we learn? How would we grow? How would we be challenged to go the extra mile, to push ourselves, to overcome?!
It's all about the journey. I'm still writing my story. Everyday one more piece is added, one more lesson is learned, one more accomplishment is made and one more dream is rediscovered.
My feet tell a story of where I have been and hold the hopes and dreams of where I am going!
