It's me again......
It's been way to long....
Life has just been busy, and time has gotten away from me. But I thought nothing more pefect than a quiet evening alone in my room just me and God, time to think... time to write... time to blog... Sometimes it feels good to just write it all out. to let it all go and to express myself.
It's April now, time is flying by. It seems like just yesterday i was talking about my trip to paraguay and just getting back into the groove of life in the states again and now it is 4 months later. Sometimes I wish time would slow down, but then again I wish time would speed up in certain areas. But hey you can't have it both ways, just like in life.
Where to begin... life is truly a journey. One that we we seem to find to discover something new on everyday, one where we never know what today or tomorrow will bring, one where we have to climb some of the highest and deepest mountains, one where we learn to love even when it hurts, one where we learn to forgive and let go, one where we see beyond the natural eye but we see into the beauty, and into the eye of the beholder. One where we learn lessons that are never easy. One where we must fight until we can't fight no more. One where we must find hope in the darkest places. One where we must love those that no one else will love. One where sometimes it seems the light is never at the end of the tunnel but it means you have to press on even harder.... I could keep going but pretty much life is a joureny, constantly turning. Everyday I am learning more and more on this journey on this so called thing that we call life. I am learning more and more about my story... i am learning more about why God has placed me on the jouney that I am on...
To be honest, there are days it never makes sense, there are days I still sometimes question and ask why. There are days that I don't always understand. There are days that all I can literally do is cry. but one thing that I always know is that God has loved me with an everlasting love, and he is a Faithful and True Father. He will never leave me or forsake me and he has called me by name. He knows when i sit and when I rise. He is familiar with all my ways. He hems me in behind and before. He will walk me through every part of my journey as long as I continue to be willing to listen to his still small voice and know that everything that I face, everything that I do, everything that I see, everyone that I meet is all apart of my Story. My story is bigger than my eyes can even see. Everyday as I write my story I am also sharing my story. So no matter what I face or what you face you must always try to find that place in your heart where you know that God is hearing you, loving you, and seeking you out.
Lately there has been many tears shed. many tears that I don't even really have answers for. But I know that down deep inside my heart is on the weaker and fragile side, but even in that I know that God is my strength and my portion. Every morning when I rise, it is a new day. New Grace, New Mercies and New joy abound! I shall not fear but hope and believe.
my title for this blog is In the silence, God speaks. Today I was sitting at work by myself this morning, just thinking and talking to God. I saw this little book on the desk and picked it up to read it. It was by Max Lucado. The title on the book was something about tough times.... so I began reading the little chapters and came upon on of the last chapters. The title of it was " In The Silence, God Speaks"... All of the sudden as I read that title, I put down the book and I just sat there... I listend and in that moment those 5 words were pretty powerful, because God really does speak to you in the silence. There are so many times when I just sit..... and I listen... I listen to his still small voice... I listen to him whisper in my ear and remind me who I am, who he has called me to be, how much he loves me, and that he has a plan and a purpose for my life..........
In The Silence he speaks to me. I know that he hears my hearts cry and sees every tear i shed. he knows my deepest dreams and my biggest hopes and he loves me more and more everyday. I will praise him in the storm.
