roads of life..

Well it has been several days since I have blogged last......

Life has been so busy... It seems the days never slow down but they always speed up... and to say the least, lately life has seemed to be just a bit overwhelming... I mean I'm sure many people could agree with that statement....

I am almost to the end of my fall semester and I cannot be more ready to be done.... I feel like finally I am getting closer and closer to then end of my college career. After December, I will only have a total of 14 semester hours of classes and then STUDENT TEACHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH... I feel like it has taken forever to get to this point, and I am still not there yet but I am so close... and still far away... It has def. not been without much perseverance... trial.... and much change in character to get to this point of my life... and God is still daily challenging me in more ways than one and I know that what he has in store will surpass anything that I have dreamed of....

Even though lately it seems that I have been fighting my dreams and my hopes and feeling as if they were to big... unreal... non existent.... but I know that in life sometimes it takes much trial to get to the place that God has called you to be. It takes much perseverance and much challenge..... Sometimes the lessons in life are hard.. Sometimes you don't always understand them. But I know lately I have been learning to just wait upon him.... For he has ordaned my every step... He has a plan and a purpose for my life.......
Over the past couple weeks I had found out that I was not in the Teacher Education Program yet at school, therefore I could not take any classes for next semester and the reason why, was becasue I didn't pass the Praxis I, but mind you my score was a 173 and you have to have a 174!!!!!!!!!1..... So I have to take it again.. pray I pass and pray they let me in next semester so I can choose classes, then I found out I was short 1200 for my trip to Paraguay... then I began to see some of my friends true colors come out... In these moments I felt completly lost... empty... alone.. forgotten... but then I stopped and was reminded that God's love... faithfullness.... hope.... far out reaches anything that this world has to offer... I found peace.. and hope in that moment and knew that God does not put me through anything that he does not think I can handle. I know that I am strong. My name means "Strong at Heart"... I truly believe that God has given me strength that I never knew existed....
I am ready for this new chapter.. change... new beginnings.... Being 22 now has given me another whole new outlook on life...

Journey

Well I just celebrated my 22 birthday and I still can't believe it. I just can't believe how fast time flies by. It seems like just yesterday I was moving to Tennessee and entering my sophomore year of high school. Now I am in my Senior year of college and about to enter the next biggest and greatest chapter of my life!

I don't know where the next years will take me but I know that my hopes and dreams are not to big to ask God... are not to big to dream and are not to big to hope. My brother always told me to never settle for second best but to ALWAYS wait and go for God's absolute best. Sometimes in life it is so hard to wait. It is so hard to not always know everything... TO know where you will be working.. who will you marry... where will you be in 5 years... and so on and so on... But yet everything is in God's perfect timing.

I know for me as I am getting older, I see my friends slowly gradutating and going their own way... getting engaged... married.. and starting a family of their own. Sometimes that reality is hard to face.. It's hard to think that I am at that place in my life. I don't have a significant other yet in my life, because I am holding out for God's best but sometimes it's hard. Sometimes I wish I just knew who i would be marrying, I wish I knew when I would meet him or if I have already met him. I wonder when that day will come. Sometimes it is lonley when I see all my friends around me with their significant others but then again it is also in those moments that I am reassured of the love of Christ and how is love far out stretches anything and anyone.....

I am excited about this next journey of my life. I am excited about where God is taking me and where I am going.... It is all about the jounrey..