Hinds Feet on HIgh Places...............Psalms 18:33

Well it has been several days since I have been on here..... It has just been one of those weeks and weekends.....

I feel like I am in one of the lowest valleys of my life. I have been reading this woman's devotional book called Hinds Feet on High Places. It is an allegory and it pretty much tells the story of my life... so in this book it talks about the valleys, mountains, and things in life that you will struggle with, encounter, fight, war, overcome and eventually you will reach the high places.

It is just a really awesome devotional..... you should check it out!

In a couple weeks it will be 3 years since i was diagnosed with a Liver disease. I literally came to death's door and the doctor's didn't know if I would live or not. But I knew that my God was bigger and no mountain or valley was to big for him. During this time, God challenged me in every area and aspect to my life. he stretched my faith beyond my imagination. He spoke a word over my life and said that I must surrender everything to him, my dreams, hopes visions, pain, hurt and to let Jesus love me and be my friend. The plans that God has for my life may not go as I would hope or think but that they would surpass all my dreams but I must surrender my will and submit to God.
so this has been a long and hard 3 year journey for me and my family. In one second my life was turned upside down and I did not what to think, how to feel or even if I would understand. But I am still here today, alive and stronger than ever, there is no cure for what I have but I know that I will see my 100% healing, I know that God will continue to be faithful in every way.
I have learned so much over this journey not only about myself, but about life. My relationship with God has been strengthen in so many ways and I have grown so much. It may have been and still is the hardest thing I am overcoming but it is so worth it.

So this brings me to where I am at today.... This sickness is a mountain in my life. that I am climbing and that I am OVERCOMING daily.... however a long this journey I have had many valleys and still do sometimes because God is still daily working in my life and shaping me to be that Godly young woman he has called me to be. I have still had to learn the lesson of surrendering everything to him. It's not about what I want, but it's about what God wants.

It seems as of lately there has been so valleys and low points in my life but My mom told me once when you feel the lowest, when you feel the farthest from God it is when you are the closest. It is so true. Cause in the midst of this storm of my life I feel so close to God.

For I know that he will never leave me or forsake me. I know that the best is still yet to come. There are days that I just want to give up, but I know that I must keep pressing on, I must continue to climb this mountain and these valleys because what is on the other side is far greater than what I can see right now.

I know that there are things in my life right now and circumstances that I just need to let go of and move on. Sometimes we have to let go of the things that we love most, or things that are keeping us from fulfilling the promises and the calling of God on our life. It's not easy and most of the time it is not what we want to do. But submitting to God's will is obedience. through obedience we will see the bigger picture. Instead of just seeing what we want to see.

So I know that i am almost to my high places, to the places that God has called me to. I am excited to watch God begin to unfold the next chapters of my life. Even when I am at my weakest he gives me strength to soar with eagles wings.

Even as I am sharing my valleys and low points I say to myself and to you. Trust God no matter when. even in your deepest darkest hour God is there. He sees every tear you cry, and hears the very cry of your heart. He knows you inside and out. He will make a way where there may seem to be know way. He has loved you with an everlasting love and has called you by name. He knows how many hairs our on your head. He knows when you sit and when you rise. Never doubt. Always hope and always Believe. Believe that you can be changed. Believe that God knows the very hour and the very place. It will happen in his timing not ours..........

Pslams 18:33 and Hab 3:19
"The Lord maketh my feeth like hinds feet and setheth me upon mine high places"

Throughts from my weekend....

Well I finished my first week of summer school. 1 down and 2 1/2 more weeks to go. It was really not that bad. It is very fast paced which I like, and you seem to learn more and easier. I think it will be good.
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I just keep telling myself that it is one step closer to graduation, when I hear that, then I know in the end summer school will be all worth it.... Only 3 more semesters and i will be on my way to teaching. I am just so excited about being able to finally teach on my own and pour into the lives of children as so many have poured into my life. I want to be that Godly example that the kids see. I am excited to see where God takes me and how the next chapter of my life will unfold.

So my weekend has been wonderful. Last night we spent some time with the Bentley's and then us girls went to a Lingerie shower. It was lots of fun. its crazy to see my friends getting married. Time is just flying bye right before my eyes. It was cool to think that one day I will get to look forward to all those showers and exciting times for planning a wedding....

Well I just wanted to blog a little before bed. It has been a long day. Spent it with my lovely mom :) Looking forward to a great day tomorrow and a awesome week ahead.

Always my Mother... Forever my Friend..

Well first of all Happy Mother's Day to all the wonderful mom's out there, but especially my mom.

As I was in church this morning and he was reading the passage in Proverbs 31 that talks about the character of a noble wife and mother. It got me thinking about what my mom truly means to mean and how so many times in our day to day life we take things for granted. There are not enough words to express what my mom means to me. I love her with everything within me. She is not only my mother but my best friend. When I look at my mom, I see so much of myself in her :)

My mom has done a phenomonal job at raising me and my brother. She has not only been mom, but dad, and friend. She has such strength about her. I know sometimes she does not even see it or realize it but she does. I look up to her and admire her for the woman of God that she is. I thank her for the way she has raised me and brought me up. Maybe there have been times when I didn't want to hear what she had to say or was on opposite ends of thinking but in the end there was always truth in what she spoke. The words of wisdom she has spoken, the prayers she has offered up, the tears she has cried, the laughs she has shown, the encouragemnt she gives and the love that she daily shows truly reflects the mother, friend and woman of God that she is. I love her for her. She is beautiful on the inside and out. She makes me laugh and smile everytime I see her. She brings joy to my heart.

My prayers is that one day I will be half the mother to my children that she has been to me and my brother.

It's overwhelming to think that I am now 21, at that age where in the next couple years I could be married then entering into the next chapter of my life and then one day becoming a mother of my own. It seemed like just yesterday I was a little girl swinging in your arms and playing in the sand. My how time has flown. But don't ever doubt everything that you have instilled in my from the time I was born was worth every bit of it.

MoM... I love you. Thanks for being my mom and friend. You are an amazing woman of God. never doubt who you are. You have an awesome heart. Keep pressing on and believing that God's best is yet to come. Doors that no man can open but God will open. Our family is in his hands. He loves you more than you know and so do I. Thanks for everything that you are, everything you do and for helping to shape me into the woman that I am today. I would not be who I am if it was not for your prayers, devotions, challenges, tears, laughs, and most of all love. First Mother and Daughter and always Best Friends Forever.........

Somewhere over The Rainbow

Well SUMMER is finally here. I took my last final today and I can say that it feels good to be done. It is a season of goodbyes and new beginnings. There have been some bittersweet moments. My Best Friend graduates this year and I feel a bit of sadness in realizing how fast time is flying bye.

I am glad that I will finally be in the final stretch of my college career. I am only 3 semesters away from finally fulfilling my life long dream of becoming a teacher. I can't wait to be in a classroom with my students and pouring into their lives and watching them grow into extraordinary men and women.

There are even some overwhelming feelings of the fact that every second of every day is flying by right before my eyes. I have come to a place where I just don't know what to think or sometimes don't even understand the circumstances going on around me. I know that their our times in our life or most of the time that we are not supposed to understand but just continually trust God in all things. But there are some things that I wish I knew the answers to. Sometimes it seems that the situations or the things in my life that i know are supposed to be there are so close but yet so far away. Maybe the other side does not see it, however I see it in a different way and it is so hard sometimes to hold on. There are days I just want to give up because I feel I have been pushed so far, so far that i don't know how I would get back. I don't know what to think or believe except to believe what i know in my heart and what I feel. In the midst of it all I somehow seem a way to push through and make it back to the top, even if it takes forever, I know that in the long run the best things in life are sometimes worth waiting for even if you have to release them first they will eventually come back to you.

I will push through the rain and the storms and see the sunshine. I know that what is on the other side is far greater than what is going on right now. Sometimes you have to get out there and dance in the rain instead of waiting for the storm to pass......

The other day i thought of the song Somewhere over the rainbow and I read the words and expresses in some ways how I feel...



Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.
There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops, Away above the chimney tops.
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly. Birds fly over the rainbow,
Why then - oh, why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow,
Why, oh, why can't I?


Somewhere over the rainbow my dreams, hopes and visions are there. Sometimes it calls for waiting. sometimes it calls for pressing on. In all things my trust and hope is in God. I know the best is yet to come in all things :)